FEAR

I have to admit to myself that it is me that will either ultimately hold myself back or push myself forward. Lately I have consumed myself with so much fear. I have been thinking about the worse possible situations that can occur. What a bad message to send to the universe. I must concentrate on enjoying what is happening now and not what might happen later. It's the fear about losing the things I care and love the most. What I realized is that my concentration or focus on those fears will only bring them to life.

The emotion we call...Anger

Today I thought about anger and dicipline. My supervisor was upset today because the two stories we came up with for our reporters fell through and it was out of our control. It was 10am and we were two stories short for our 4:30pm deadline. I mean trying to come up with news coverage that can translate into viewer interest and involvement is quite a challenge when covering only one borough. There's only so much you can do or come up with. I raised my scanner hoping to hear something interesting enough to report on. Sadly, nothing. The Bronx was definitely not burning today. What I realized through out the day was my supervisor's temperament and how it was beginning to affect me. How you use anger as your source for taking action intrigued me today.

"You can change fear and sorrow to anger then turn anger to action, that's the body's secret of internal alchemy."

However, what I sometimes notice is that even though anger generates action, anger can lead to destructive behavior or out of control behavior. We sometimes say things to hurt others using our words to pierce them deep. So my question to you all is: How do we sincerely use anger to generate positive action instead of negative reaction? I guess it comes down to controlling our impulses. Thoughts?

Here's to the Crazy Ones

Here's to the crazy ones.

The misfits. The rebels.
The troublemakers. The round
pegs in the square holes - the
ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules and
they have no respect for
the status quo. You can praise
them, disagree with them,
quote them, disbelieve them,
glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing that you
can't do is ignore them.
Because they change things.

- Jack Kerouac
quoted in an Apple Computer Ad, 1997

Just for fun...

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?

My student loan payments. It’s my biggest bill, and usually causes me to cry.

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?

Hmmm…

3. Last time you puked from drinking?

A very long time ago...

4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar?

Haven't gotten to that point recently and I never dance on a bar.

5. Name of your first grade teacher?

Mrs. Murphy

6. What do you really want to be doing right now?

Sitting outside somewhere in Spain and writing my first screenplay which is brilliant enough to win me an Oscar and bring me millions.

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?

I've always wanted to work in film. However, at one point in high school I wanted to be a physical therapist, but science was never my forte. I'll stick to what I'm good at.

8. How many colleges did you attend?

One. Grad school is calling my name though...maybe

9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?

It's comfortable.

10. GAS PRICES?

Used to be outrageous.

11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you?

I would move to Paris for the free health care and then the Carribean with...

12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?

New Day = New Experiences

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?

Debating whether I should finish reading.

14. Favorite style of underwear?

All lace Boyshorts or sometimes just plain boyshorts.

15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?

Why wear underwear? It's so constricting. lol

16. What errand/chore do you despise?

Paying the bills.

17. If you didn’t have to work, would you volunteer?

I would most definitely volunteer. I was in Americorps in college.

18. Get up early or sleep in?

Depends on my mood or agenda for the following day...

19. What is your favorite cartoon character?

Mulan or Jean Gray from X-Men.

20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a girl/guy?

Have a good conversation.

21. Have you found real love yet?
One day I will

22. When did you first start feeling old?

I don't...at least not yet.

23. Favorite 80’s movie?

I have many: Lost Boys, Goonies, Gremlins, Breakfast Club, Sixteen Candles, A Christmas Story, Who Framed Roger Rabbit?, Stand By Me, E.T., An Officer and a Gentlemen. I can go on...

24. Your favorite lunch meat?

Turkey.

25. What do you get every time you go into Sam’s Club?

I haven’t been there in awhile.

26. Beach or lake?

Beach

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?

No. But I don't know how I feel about marriage anymore. Marriage seems like a joke to our generation.

28. Favorite guilty pleasure?

I don't feel guilty about enjoying something that brings me pleasure...

29. Favorite movie you wouldn’t want anyone to find out about?

None. I am extremely proud in my taste in movies, therefore I would not mind sharing that with others.

30. What’s your drink?

Sex on the Beach.

31. Cowboys or Indians?

Indians.

32. Cops or Robbers?

None.

33. Who from high school would you like to run into?

My homeroom/anthropology/sociology teacher Mr. Henry.

34. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?

Well when I had a car, it was mostly 105.1 or Hot 97.

35. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons?

The Cosby Show.

36. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?

Allowing myself to be treated less than I know I deserve.

37. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?

I have three people who sit across from me and I enjoy their antics.

38. If you could get away with it, who would you kill?

What a crazy question. No one.

39. What famous person(s) would you like to party with?

Johnny Dep, Salvadore Dali, Spike Lee...

40. What famous person would you like to sleep with?

Eric Bana. He's Dreamy lol

41. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?

Nope.

42. Last book you read for real?

Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho

43. Do you have a teddy bear?

When I was younger...

44. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?

In a cabin in the woods, but that's not really strange.

45. Somewhere in California you’ve never been and would like to go?

San Francisco.

46. Do you go to church?

No. I used to when I was younger.

47. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?

Why not both. I say Career and new relationship.

48. Just how OLD are you?

25 in body, 75 in mind, and 9 at heart.

Are you getting enough face time?

So I may be guilty of this, but it still upsets me every time I see it or if it happens to me. I was sitting down at a local mom and pop coffee shop. I was trying to read a book that was recommended to me by a friend, but I couldn't get into it. I glanced up and over. I noticed two women having a conversation nearby. As they were talking, one of them gets distracted and starts to look at her cell phone and starts texting in the middle of the conversation. The other women continues to ramble on, but you can clearly see she was annoyed at the other girls action. I remember this happening to me a very long time ago. I was out with my father and brother for lunch. My brother was plugged into his PS 2. I think I was talking about a recent film I saw or an event that happened to me when suddenly, through mid conversation, my father takes out his phone and starts to mess with it or text. Maybe I sound too dramatic, but I thought it was so rude. What ever happened to sincere, human interaction?

It just brings me back to the clever Dentyne Ice ads I see on the subway. Lets put away our devices and make some face time. Nowadays I'm realizing how close we are to losing or missing one of the simple joys in life: being together. Lets take a few moments of our day to take action in interaction please.

Music is my Therapy

He exudes dapperness...

"I love your mind design."

I know his album came out almost a month ago, but I never had the time to actually sit, listen, and absorb his wonderful music until recently. I'm a R&B junkie so I'm definitely feeling Raphael Saadiq's album: The way I See it. With its Motown sound and appeal, I find it hard to resist playing it over and over again. It's a sure fire classic. My soul is moved and I'm brought back to the times of Marvin Gaye,The Temptations, The Supremes, Smokey Robinson...the list goes on. I especially appreciate his song, "Like It." I mean why woudn't I. It features Stevie Wonder! :)

When I think about how music affects people, it's quite simple. Music has an emotional impact on people. Music is a way to express yourself and sometimes it's a way to learn how to express yourself.

P.S. I recommend you listen to "Sometimes" on his album as well! You will not be disappointed.

I can't wait to get this issue!